The other day, I saw the video for Invisible Children: Kony 2012, and felt inspired and overwhelmed all at the same time. You know that frozen motivation that you feel when you want to make a difference, but you don’t know where to start? That’s me after watching the movie. I feel like I have so much to do, but does everything I have to get done really matter compared to children being kidnapped and turned into soldiers? Not really, but if I stop doing these things I feel like I’m missing out on something. Sometimes I feel like if I just keep on trekking, keep doing something, ANYTHING, to get through the day and maybe earn some money I’ll be something, I’ll matter. I don’t want to just get through the days though. I want to live my days, to make a difference in the lives of those I meet! Don’t get me wrong, when I stop to think about the impact I’m making, I know I’m doing some good.
But it’s that frozenness that gets to me. I get so inspired that I want to jump to the extreme and move to Africa and do whatever I can there. The problem is I don’t want to only move to Africa to help, but I want to do it right now. I wonder why I make that jump, and why I have that all or nothing mentality. Maybe it’s because I grew up hearing “go big or go home,” or because dropping everything to just go somewhere isn’t a foreign idea to me.
“What stops you from going right now?” you might ask. I know I can’t take on these challenges alone. So just dropping everything to go there isn’t going to help anyone. I have a friend in Africa right now who went there on his own, and I feel like he’s frustrated because the help needed is too much for 1 man, or woman even.
I think another part of the frozenness is I know there are soooooo many causes that are worthwhile and that I’d love to be apart of. I visited an orphanage in India in 2008, and I saw the needs of the orphans, lepers, and widows there. I came home so inspired, but frozen in what I could do. I kept waiting until I had a great fundraising idea, or an idea of how to promote the orphanage’s cause. It never came.
I waist my time dwelling on the fact that I’m not doing wild and crazy things like moving to Africa or having a kick ass program to help the kids in India, when I could totally be taking smaller steps that are moving me forward. That’s my goal today: move forward taking small steps. I’m going to take steps like sharing the Invisible Children movie with one person today and look into getting the info to become apart of the movement. Another step I want to take is spreading the word about the orphanage in India. It’s a cause that I’m close to and that I can share from the heart with others.
If you have time I invite you to check out Invisible Children’s movie 2012, and stay tuned as I share more about Emmanuel, the orphans, lepers, widows and the program His Children that helps them out.
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